What’s meant for you...
26 June 2007
There are so many things that determine your destiny that sometimes you feel like nothing depends on you anymore. Day after day, reiteratively, „what if...” questions your ability to decide on your own future. Moreover, as the saying goes, what is meant for you, will happen for you.
These days I went against the flow, a flow that has once again showed me that you must do everything you can to exist and to give the world a part of you, but the glare of your doing, that final touch, belongs only to God.
My existence was basically careless until now. A few unfulfillments, but each one had its meaning. Every tear was an important ingredient in my development. Not once, I felt that no matter how hard I try to shape my present or my future, regardless of my wish to borrow from the personalities of the ones whom I admire, it was Something above all, that showed me, at certain points, who I have to be. And that seems incredible.
I shiver at the thought that we’re constantly being showed, from above, the signs, we’re being showed the way that was cut out for us and so manytimes we ignore them – something, the same thing that makes you feel lonely, whispers to you that this is only your imagination, it’s only an illusion...
Making compromises with my inner voice makes me sad. It so happens that, silently – you sneak out of yourself and say: no one saw me, I haven’t even saw me. Then you feel... You try to ignore it, but the inevitable happens. You get your slap in the back of your head. And it doesn’t come unexpectedly, it lines up with fifes and drums,
